So I have never tried blogging before. It’s funny. I have always had a diary of some sort or another for a long part of my life, but ever since I got to college, I don’t seem to have time anymore to scrapbook, journal, paint, etc…Such is life. So I guess this is for me to artfully meander through the musings of what I hope is to become a developed and confident mind — capable of doing big things as everyone seems to expect of me. I just want to go to Argentina or Norway and take a 5 year vacation from life. Back to my rusty journaling skills — I have a friend who has given me a journal for my last two birthdays. They are cute as hell and I will treasure them forever. I don’t have the heart to tell her that I haven’t used the last two yet. But I will. Don’t worry, for those of you who think I’m callous. I have used another cute little red and white one she’s given me to run back and forth from meetings and to jot down cute quotes. I started using another one that says “Friends” on it to jot down notes in church. It’s come in very handy, actually.
Let’s add a bit of substance…my biggest fear in the world is wasting my time and God’s time. I don’t want to wake up one day with un-purpose-full life, and yet I can’t seem to figure out what the hell I’m supposed to do when college is over. Seriously, all I’ve got right now as a back-up plan is Argentina, and I don’t even know anyone there. Something just seems to draw me in to the thought of starting over. It’s like the last episode of Roswell, where Liz sends her journal to her parents, and she’s like, I don’t know where I’m going to be tomorrow — all I know is that “I’m Liz Parker, and I’m happy.” Nothing so dramatic as to be running for your life day in and day out, but I think I thrive on the idea of the simple satisfaction of knowing that your life counts in some small way and that you are with the one(s) you love.
Right…I do have to get back to my applied math, photonics, and fluid mechanics. By the way, I am a biomedical engineering student almost to be done with college. I am considering everything from graduate school to business school to getting an MBA to a combination of all of the above to taking a year off to going into the finance services. When I figure it out, you’ll be the first to know…
